Subtle God
David Berman speaks about Judaism&God
״My faith was undermined by the same sort of things that make people skeptics of religion in general. Part of it was, there was no real place for me in Judaism. Maybe if there was I would’ve hung in there, but I was attracted to the social-justice aspects of Judaism, and I was attracted to the prophets. The prophets had something I didn’t have, which was a line on God. They had communication. That’s why I call it a “subtle God” [in “Margaritas at the Mall”]. I’m being sarcastic. It’s kind of angering—you get to the point that if you do believe in God, you get angry at God, and then nothing happens. Although I’ll never rule anything out; I’m not an atheist in any way. Part of it was also that Judaism is all about community—everyone prays in the third person—and where I live in Nashville, there’s just nothing there. The reform temples—the rabbis are like anchormen. There was just no community for me. So that made it easy for me to backslide. And then I had read everything that I had wanted to read, and I just stopped being able to pray. I still try it, you know. I’m an older guy, but I barely even masturbate. Like, I don’t know if I pray or masturbate once a month. So I’ve given up on both of those.״
